Just a taste of what’s to come on my record. This isn’t this final album version, but it’s close. Needed to get this off my chest and share something. This is for the fans. I love you all. - Ian
The first thing I must be willing to admit when I begin to examine what controls and dominates me is that I am the one responsible for having yielded myself to whatever it may be. If I am a slave to myself, I am to blame because somewhere in the past I yielded to myself. Likewise, if I obey God I do so because at some point in my life I yielded myself to Him.
If a child gives in to selfishness, he will find it to be the most enslaving tyranny on earth. There is no power within the human soul itself that is capable of breaking the bondage of the nature created by yielding. For example, yield for one second to anything in the nature of lust, and although you may hate yourself for having yielded, you become enslaved to that thing. (Remember what lust is— “I must have it now,” whether it is the lust of the flesh or the lust of the mind.) No release or escape from it will ever come from any human power, but only through the power of redemption. You must yield yourself in utter humiliation to the only One who can break the dominating power in your life, namely, the Lord Jesus Christ. “… He has anointed Me … to proclaim liberty to the captives …” (Luke 4:18 and Isaiah 61:1).
When you yield to something, you will soon realize the tremendous control it has over you. Even though you say, “Oh, I can give up that habit whenever I like,” you will know you can’t. You will find that the habit absolutely dominates you because you willingly yielded to it. It is easy to sing, “He will break every fetter,” while at the same time living a life of obvious slavery to yourself. But yielding to Jesus will break every kind of slavery in any person’s life.
Dearest Fans, Friends, and Family,
Today marks the beginning of a new life for me. I’ve made the final decision to officially leave Hot Chelle Rae. Yes, this means I will from here on out, no longer be a part of the band. This is a decision that has been on my heart for a very long time. I have countless, priceless memories with the guys from the past seven years. We rose from the very bottom of the entertainment industry, and succeeded in making a name for ourselves. This doesn’t mean Hot Chelle Rae is over. They will continue on without me and I wish them the absolute very best. I love Ryan, Nash, and Jamie like brothers. We have been through thick and thin together, and those memories will never, ever be forgotten.
This will come as an absolute shock to many of you, and for that I apologize. For me, I felt it was my time to move on. I am a dreamer and have lived daily with aspirations of so much beyond my position in HCR. Since the last show I played with them on September 20th, I have been trying to grasp the idea of how to start over. For the past few years, all i’ve known is HCR, it is what i lived and breathed. Now, the freedom allotted to me will open doors that I’m overwhelmingly excited to go through. I haven’t allowed myself any down time and have jumped right in to working diligently and tirelessly doing the two things I do best; making music and taking pictures. I’m working for the first time on my own studio album, a dream of mine since I started writing music at the age of 16. I can’t wait to share this part of who I am with the world.
I want to thank the fans of HCR for being THE BEST. You all have the biggest hearts, and have shown so much love for all of us individually since the beginning and for that i am so grateful. Please don’t take this change as a negative thing, because it is quite the opposite. Let us all move forward together. The future is bright and beautiful. I am so blessed.
Remnants of a terrible night in the ER. I’m home now. But docs unsure of what this thing is in the muscle in my neck. It’s causing excruciating pain on the left side, rendering me entirely useless. Taking heavy anti-biotics and anti-inflammatory to try and yield both comfort, as well as healing. If it doesn’t clear up I’ll be going back for a CT scan. Praying for total and complete healing before that happens. Prayers appreciated.
As promised! The final photo of me from yesterday at the vineyard! Go see the high res at www.seanhagwell.com :)